Sketches For My Sweetheart The Drunk - the lyrics Pg. 12. These lyrics reflect the words Jeff sang in the particular performances you will be listening to. It was his usual practice to experiment and improvise throughout the creative process. There are moments in these recordings where he mispronounces a word or garbles a phrase. In those cases, we referred to his handwritten manuscript, though those were often different, earlier incarnations of the versions he recorded here. I cannot emphasize enough that these were works in progress, still in the process of metamorphosis. I have done my best to make the following transcription as accurate as can be, under the circumstances. M. Guibert pg 13. THE SKY IS A LANDFILL Circle around the park, joining hands in silence Watch the evil black the sky The storm has ripped the shelter of illusion from our brow. This is no mystery to us now. Leave your spirit genocide, the cancer you won't remove. We cast our funeral rose inside and bury the need to prove. Our mutilation is to gain from the system. Turn your head away from the screen, oh people. It will tell you nothing more. Don't suck the milk of Flaccid Bill K. Public's empty promise To the promise that the public can ignore. This way of life is so devised to snuff out the mind that moves. Moving with grace the men despise, and women have learned to lose. Throw off your shame or be a slave to the system. I see you take another drag, one more lost soul to raise your flag. The sky is a landfill. I see you take another drag. let's see you take another drag. You like to dance to the rolling head of the adulteress, you sing in praise of suicide. We know you're useless, Like cops at the scene of the crime, With your steroids and your feedbag and your stable and your trainer, I got a mail bomb for you Mr. Strong Arm. Throw out the stones from all the cemetery homes, For the violence of a nation gone by, Or the politics of weakness and the garbage dump of souls That will now black the sky. Their yellow haze and crowds of eyes will plug up the mind that moves, Moving with grace the men despise, and women have learned to lose. We'll share our bodies in disdain for the system. I see you take another drag, one nation bends to kiss the hag. The sky is a landfill. I see you take another drag. I see you take another drag. I have no fear of this machine! EVERYBODY HERE WANTS YOU Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile, Coffee smell and lilac skin, your flame in me. Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile, Coffee smell and lilac skin, your flame in me. I'm only here for this moment. I know everybody here wants you. I know every body here thinks he needs you I'll be waiting right here just to show you How our love will blow it all away. Such a thing of wonder in this crowd, I'm a stranger in this town, you're free with me. And our eyes locked in downcast love, I sit here proud, Even now you're undressed in your dreams wit me. I'm only here for this moment. I know everybody here wants you. I know everybody here thinks he needs you. I'll be waiting right here just to show you. How our love will blow it all away. I know the tears we cried have dried on yesterday The sea of fools has parted for us there's nothing in our way, my love Don't you see, don't you see? You're just the torch to put the flame to all our guilt and shame, And I'll rise like an ember in your name. You know I, you know I, I know everybody here wants you. I know everybody here thinks he needs you. I'll be waiting right here just to show you. Let me show you that love can rise, rise just like embers. Love can taste like the wine of the ages, babe. And I know they all looks so good from a distance, But I tell you I'm the one. I know everybody here thinks he needs you, think he needs you And I'll be waiting right here just to show you. Pg 14. OPENED ONCE I once was open and one with a travelling heart. I loved this sweet guy. Just like a fiction rushing in your riverbed. Arise like applause in my head. And in the half-light where we both stand. This is the half-light, see me as I am. Just like the ocean, always in love with the moon, It's overflowing now, inside you. We fly right over the minds of so many in pain. We are the smile of light that brings them rain. In the half light where we both stand In the half light you saw me as I am I am a railroad track abandoned With the sunset forgetting I ever happened, That I ever happened. NIGHTMARES BY THE SEA Beware the bottled thoughts of angry young men. Secret compartments hide all of the skeletons. Little girl wants to make her home with him, In the middle of the shore, she wonders, "Don't know what you asked for." "Don't know what you asked for." All young lovers know why Nightmares blind their mind's eye. Your rube is young and handsome. So new to your bedroom floor, You know damn well where you'll go. I've loved so many times and I've drowned them all. From their coral graces, they rise up when darkness falls. With their bones they'll scratch the window, I hear them call. "Don't know what you asked for." "Don't know what you asked for." All young lovers know why Nightmares blind their mind's eye. Your rube is young and handsome. So new to your bedroom floor, You know damn well where you'll go. Stay with me under these waves, tonight. Be free for once in your life tonight. Your rube is young and handsome, So new to your bedroom floor, You know damn well where you'll go All young lovers know why Nightmares blind their mind's eye. Your rube is young and handsome. So new to your bedroom floor, You know damn well where you'll go. All young lovers know why Nightmares blind their mind's eye. Your rube is young and handsome. So new to your bedroom floor, You know damn well where you'll go. Ah. Ah. Ah. YARD OF BLONDE GIRLS Through the yard, through the yard of blond girls. Through the river and the sea. Gold sharks glittering. A tree of white breaks the earth. The streets where Lola played. Very sexy, very sexy. Okay, okay. Fear, we may come. (X 4) So run, run, run, run, run, run, run. It's in your heart, it's in your art, your beauty. Even in this world of lies, there's purity, You've got innocense in your eyes. Even in this world of lies, you're still hopeful. very sexy, Okay, okay. Fear, we may come. (X 4) So run, run, run, run, run, run, run. Through the yard, through the yard of blonde girls. Through the river and the sea. Gold sharks glittering. A tree of white breaks the earth. The streets where Lola played. Very sexy, very sexy. Okay, okay. Fear, we may come. (X 4) So run, run, run, run, run, run, run. pg 15. WITCHES' RAVE It sounds just like a scream. I don't know what you mean. Your witchcraft's all around me in your ragged pagan scene. You tell me all the ways around my garden that you like. I float just like a bubble heading for a spike. All is well between the breasts of passenger and slave. We'll never make it out alive to join the witches' rave. You'd like to see him suffer for you fantasy and thrill. He fell sick while we made love, he's out there, somewhere, still. Oh, I feel the spell that you have cast, Hot, pink, nasty bubble gum, coming down just like a big red coal. Ooooooo. Oooooooo. I can't help from looking outside for a guarantee I can't help from looking outside for a guarantee. Hey! I try to keep all hidden when you come around. Oh, no! The sight of broomsticks sliding on the ground. You're levitating something, ?cause I feel so collectible. We're all lying natural, he's watching from a window up above I see he loves you, I'll bring you closer. Something in my fate says it's not right for me Tell me, am I cursed or am I blessed? I don't' know, oh yes! ?Cause all is well between the breasts of passenger and slave. I'll never make it out alive to join the witches' rave. Oooooooooo. Ooooooooooooo. I can't help from looking outside for a guarantee (&x) For a guarantee. NEW YEAR'S PRAYER Oooooo. Fall in light, fall in light. Fall in light, fall in light. Feel no shame for what you are (X 5) As you now are in your heart Fall in light Feel no shame for what you are Feel no shame for what you are Feel it as a water fall Fall in light, ooh. Fall in light, fall in light, Fall in light, ooh. Fall in light, fall in light Fall in light, Grow in light. Stand absolved behind your electric chair, dancing. Stand absolved behind your electric chair, dancing. Past the sound within the sound. Past the voice within the voice. Ah. Ah. Ah. Leave your office, run past your funeral, Leave your home, car , leave your pulpit. Join us in the streets where we Join us in the streets where we Don't belong.. Don't belong. You and the stars Throwing light. Oooooo (repeat) Fall, fall. Oooooo Fall in light, fall in light. Fall in light, ooo. Fall in light, fall in light Fall in light. Grow in light. MORNING THEFT Time takes care of the sound, so I can believe. You had so much to give, you thought I couldn't see. Gifts for boot heels to crush, promises deceived I had to send it away to bring us back again. Our eyes and body brighten silent waters, deep. Your precious daughter in the other room, asleep. A kiss "Goodnight" from every stranger that I meet. I had to send it away to bring us back again. Morning theft. Unpretender left, ungraceful. True Self is what brought you here, to me. A place whee we can accept this love. Friendship battered down by useless history, Unexamined failure. What am I still to you> Some thief who stole from you? Or, some fool drama queen whose chances were few? That brings us to who we need, a place where we can save A heart that beats as both siphon and reservoir. You're a woman, I'm a calf. You're a window, I'm a knife. We come together making chance into starlight. Meet me tomorrow night, or any day you want. I have no right to wonder just how, or when. You know the meaning fits. There's no relief in this. I miss my beautiful friend. I have to send it away to bring her back again. pg. 16 VANCOUVER Lady, all the troubles are my fright, I disgust you. Feel the power. you cut the truth into you. Why? Do you think I'd hidden out? On this rely I could kiss you, with lines of escape in my mouth. Please let me bring back these gifts of mine to the woman. His eyes shined on myback as I slept and knew you. You didn't leave it all. You made an even call. My belly released th stars and tears between the scars. Ooooh. We're where we belong, it contender, I'm your loan shark of bliss. This dream you've ridden on turns yoru world to explosions You need to be alone to heal this bleeding stone. Now, smell the rain of London, it still insists That we bed for our purity As if we are pure int he rain of our contentment As if I can think of this no more. YOU AND I You and I. Ah, the calm below that poisoned rier wild, You and I. Tears that dry on a rude awakened hild. Where you look down. I'e wlked before, burining holes With eyes of liquid brown. If we had only known, in a way We wouldn't reach this ground. ou were my only home, silver eyes. I want to see you shine. And we will feel the weight. Fall away from us in time. Searching oiur past for the true. You and I, you and I, you and I. Al for you. Where you tink you'll fall, I adore you. Where you shut your soul, I will open for you. If we had only known in a way We'd never reach this ground. I know, silver eyes, I can see us shine. I sai, we will feel the weight Fall away from us in time. Searchign our past for a true You and I, you and I, you and I. All for you. Disc 2: song #1 & #2 are repeats of lyrics on disc one. (Same recordings, different mixes) HAVE'T YOU HEARD. Your wish is my command! Have you heard this talk about eye contact Gonna be the downfall of this town. First the photographs take you to the right hands. Leads you tothe authority mold. (Chorus) Paranoia will write the world prayer Make sure that you fit in the right holes But hen you take his offer, you're done for, Done for Oh! Phantoms in pockets, we're in panic, Making order in total disgust Oh, they read a list of all who cannot stay Take you down, onthe ground (Chorus) Make sure you learn to beware yoru neighbor Bolt the doors and hire your guards Suck your life with their cvirus called language Someone told you this all would go down And the last thing you see is the luster, Hodl the razor, goodbye to yoru friends Would your underground please call the mayor, Call the neighbor, call your friends (Chorus) Well, when he first saw you, you'd need no protectionI traine my eyes on your mouth, you'll learn to take him. Hmmm. It's a brand new power. My friends had her questions right. Beware your neighbor Haven't you heard, haven't you heard That we're done for. Oh. Learn to beware your neighbor And the right mode Haven't you heard? Haven't you heard, That we're done for, done for? When I count down from ten You'll feel th lead in your lids You'll have no need to exist And wake up refreshened. Hah! Pg 17. I KNOW WE COULD BE SO HAPPY, BABY (IF WE WANTED TO BE) There's no easy answer, none to blame or forgive Two cripples dancing to the end we live. I'm not with you, not of you Not with you, not of you You are soft and young to me I am the ghost who comes and goes And I hope I'll catch you in the throws Of one last look at the wonder. One last look at the wonder. O, God, I love you. And all the past we once knew Some other love becomes you Whatever else we come to I know we could be so happy, baby If we wanted to be. You are soft and young to me I am the ghost who comes and goes And I hope I'll catch you in the throws Of one last look at joy that we've become. But there's no easy answer, none to blame or forgive. We were two cripples dancing, to the biter end we live. I'm not with you, but of you. I'm not with you but of you. O, God, I loved you And all the past we once knew Some other love becomes you Whatever else it comes to I know we could be so happy, baby If we wanted to be We had a birthplace in common We had separate beds and lives. I'll just sit here and glow, Break out the oldest pictures, Hand your ruined letters out to dry. We had a birthplace in common, And separate beds and lives. I know that we could be so happy, baby If we wanted to be. know that we could be so happy, baby If we wanted to be Yeah, oh. MURDER SUICIDE METEOR SLAVE Would you like to meet he villain somewhere Underneath the skull of a moon. Fire burned his eyes out ?cause his chains are too long for you. Someone has to pay for the damage don. No-one's gonna love you now. Your whole family's splintered, You're a slave to it all now. Ooooo Ahhhhh Oh, you're a slave to it all now You're a slave Welcome down to paradise rock. There is no single entrance, With the stars to revolve around, There is no real underground No stars to revolved around Here, they're fashion the nose. Sickened by the knell of the graveyard bell You know it's not long for you. Sick of all the vomit childhood, Not a trampoline of the freaks, Not even a slave to your father. Oh, you're a slave to it all, now, Oh, you're a slave to it all, now. Welcome down to paradise rock. There is no single entrance, With the stars to revolve around, There is no real underground There is not a single entrance There's no stars to revolve around There is no real underground. You're a slave to it all, now. Happy, happy, happy. Happy, happy, happy, happy. BACK IN N.Y.C. I see faces and traces of home Back in New York City So you think I'm a tough kid Is that what you heard? Well, I like to see some action, And it eats into my blood Well, they let me out of Pontiac When I was just seventeen I had to get it out of me If you know what I mean, what I mean. They say I must be crazy ?Cause I don't' care who I hit, who I hit. ?Cause I know its me that's hitting out And I'm not full of shit. Down by my bottle, filled up high with gasoline you can tell by the night fires Where a real has been, has been As I cuddled the porcupine he said I had none to blame but me Gave my heart, deep in hell, Time to shave, shave it off, it off No time for romantic escape and your Fluffy heart is ready for rape No, no time for romantic escape And your fluffy heart is ready for rape Off we go. Off we go Off we go You're sitting in your comfort Who don't believe I'm real You cannot buy protection For the way that I feel Your progressive hypocrites Handing out their trash It was mine in the first place So I'll burn it to ash. When I've eaten all the strongest meats And laid them down in coloured sheets Laid them down in colored sheets Well, who needs illusions, Of love and affection when you're out Walking in the streets, your mainline connection Connection As I cuddled the porcupine He said I had none to blame but me Held my heart deep in hell Time to shave, shave it off, it off. No time for romantic escape and your Fluffy heart is ready for rape. No. No time for romantic escape And your fluffy heart is ready for rape. No. No time for romantic escape And your fluffy heart is ready for rape. No time. Back in New York City. GUNSHOT GLITTER (BONUS TRACK) Don't you wanna let go of your heart Or you the beds of bliss Fortune makes fools of us all My dear materialista, silence was insane, The parting was mutual Don't' you want the rocket to rock out? There's a room for us both to fly. Tell the man I'm never coming back again. Tell the man I'm never coming back again. Why should you notice at all? Gone again beside you will fall Down to the sea out of the skies Of gold cards and casual tears I have only come to see you shine Feminine smiles the right side is wise, more than I I wanna be your lover. Lipstick my name across your mirror Blood red with flaked gunshot glitter And be one with all your disown in your young life You paranoia politician diva You paranoia politician diva Will you let go your heart, Left behind a hypnotising swirl The semi's left behind. Don't you want to rocket it to rock? There's room for both of us to fly Sam show everyday, don't' have to bow up the sky. So I just came from hick town Left my coins behind Maybe some poor clone's gonna buy himself a line Why should you care if I crash your affair? Why should you notice me? I really wanna see you shine I wanna be your lover Lipstick my name across your mirror Now, be one with all you disown. DEMON JOHN Say farewell, g'night, Sonny-Jim In your defenceless, winning smile. What do you hope to win? And bliss face down, defended. Well, now stoned Demon John There's no town the boy cannot belong Why did you come here? Is it to excavate all your sins? Boil within? Slaughter like the daughter of the devil you send me I have to deal, you called me here. You couldn't say that you were juiced The night that you were introduced To Demon John Gonna take him with you when you go? Dance down slow. Oh, way down. You cannot escape the bar-side angel dissector. You undo your life with too much cocoon, who's your protector? Dark is the city where the white girls walk by. Down below your eyes, just like fireflies. You call me here, come on here, follow me dear, Past cascades of rage and fear. You called me here. You couldn't' say that you had been juiced The time that you were introduced to Demon John. Well, you knew you had to want to go, dance down slow. By the light of the sun, murder comes Today or tonight Better get yourself together and transcend it, a burst of light Blaze stars into me, while the love breaks through here and now. So, murder by the light of the sun. Please, don't get too close to me. You said you are for real, it's not pretend. All memories stolen, know this for yourself. How would you like to be the happiest man in the world? Behind the weathered field hands, whose blistered paws Harvest cut, for wedding clothes they'll never wear marching down a road that was never there It takes place on a sunlit lace and the backbone broken. Please bring us light, Demon John, You Demon John Take him with you when you go. YOUR FLESH IS SO NICE I want to tell you a story About a little cutey She's ass-slappin/ pretty And fingers Wanna let her lick me Stick the thick of my pussy From across the street She looked good enough to em me Kitty! Your flesh is nice Your flesh is nice Let me take a bite You flesh is so nice Oh, I take off my belt Oh, I whip the staircase (whip the staircase) Kill all the men Everything's dead to them You're the only one I follow Come on and let me give you that "O" Your flesh is nice I wanna take you twice Your flesh is nice Ooo your flesh is nice Your flesh is nice Wanna take a bite Your flesh is so nice Your flesh is so Your flesh is so Your flesh is so Your flesh is so Nice (repeat) JEWEL BOX I know you're a woman by the way you burn below I'll tell you secrets so good, you'll never tell a soul Come closer, that bonfire holds his life like stones My years, my life unknown Diamonds from the pavement broken glass had been. Just like these troubles that I'm leaving to the wind. Like sapphires in boxcars speeding towards the end. Like thieves, my bad luck grows. Jewel box of sadness, bring to catch your tear Crystallise illusion shine, forgot I'm here Jewel box of sadness, bring to catch your tear Oh, you left some stars in my belly Star crossed child's love on the bands of wedding gold Silver studs of promise hide in red crushed velvet folds. Inaction, intention, like emeralds I stole. My speech of custom gold. I think I ought to know. jewel box of sadness, bring to catch your tears Crystallise illusion shine, forgot I'm here Jewel box of sadness, bring to catch your tear Oh, you left some stars in my belly. you left some stars in my belly. you left some star in my belly. SATISFIED MIND How many times have you heard someone say If I had money, I'd do things my way. But little they know that it's so hard to find. one rich man in ten with a satisfied mind. Money can't buy back your youth when you're old A friend, when you're lonely, or peace to your soul/ The wealthiest person is a pauper at times Compared to the man with a satisfied mind. When my life is over and my time has run out My friends and my loved ones, I'll leave them no doubt But, on thing's for certain, when it comes my time I'll leave this old world with a satisfied mind One thing's for certain, hen it comes my time I'll this old world with a satisfied mind Satisfied mind Inside Back of CD. handwritten note: 8/25/96 When all of this music sounds like you know what you want to say, then it will have been of all worth, ever. You will be something complete unto yourself, present and unique.